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Keep Only What Can Become Prayer
Surrendering the Histories We Can No Longer Carry “The fire itself will test what sort of work each one has done.” — 1 Corinthians 3:13 There are moments when the whole history of a life seems to gather itself into a single grief. The death of my friend Fr. Drew Morgan opened such a moment for me. I found myself grieving not only the man, but nearly forty years of shared history: the things we loved, the work we undertook, the hopes we carried, the wounds we inflicted and rec
Father Charbel Abernethy
14 hours ago9 min read
The First Test of Abiding
The struggle to remain with the Lord is often fiercest precisely when we have resolved to seek nothing but Him. “Abide in me, and I in you.” — John 15:4 There are moments when the spiritual life seems suddenly to become very simple. Not easy, but simple. After years of trying to understand circumstances, discern paths, resolve questions, and discover where everything is leading, the heart hears again the one word that was there from the beginning: Remain. Abide in Me. There c
Father Charbel Abernethy
Aug 165 min read
The Man Who Began to Disappear
A Dialogue with St. Arsenius on Silence, Hiddenness, and the Soul That Grows Weary of Noise “The soul was not created for many things, but for One.” — St. Arsenius the Great A brother came to the cell of St. Arsenius the Great in the evening, and after making a prostration, he remained kneeling with his face to the ground. And the old man said to him: “Why do you remain there, child? Has grief overtaken you?” The brother answered: “Father, I do not know what has become of me.
Father Charbel Abernethy
May 113 min read
Sixty Years and the Sound of a Rooster - Part II
Warming at Another Fire “When they had kindled a fire of coals there… Peter stood with them, and warmed himself.” John 18:18 You would think at sixty a man would know the difference between warmth and fire. The rooster has already crowed once in my life. It crowed when I realized how much of my priesthood was constructed out of activity. It crowed when the doors closed, when requests were denied, when the scaffolding of identity began to fall. It crowed when I saw how often I
Father Charbel Abernethy
Feb 204 min read
When God Takes Your Child for Himself
The Hidden Calling and Grace Given to the Parents of a Monk “When the parents of a monk humbly accept the will of God for their child, then they and he serve only one desire: to do that which is pleasing to the Lord. Then peace will reign in their hearts.” Archimandrite Zacharias Zacharou ⸻ There is a moment when the parents of a monk must make their own offering. It is not made in a monastery. It is made in the hidden chamber of the heart. Until this moment, they believed th
Father Charbel Abernethy
Feb 144 min read
The Pressure That Comes Disguised as Good
On Guarding the Cell When Nothing Appears to Be Wrong “Go, sit in your cell, and your cell will teach you everything.” Abba Moses the Black ⸻ There are pressures that come from sin. These are easy to recognize. And there are pressures that come from good things. These are the ones that destroy the solitary. No demon needs to persuade the solitary to commit obvious sin. He only needs to persuade him to leave the cell for reasons that appear justified. To counsel someone. To he
Father Charbel Abernethy
Feb 134 min read
To Become a Fool and Live
A Reckoning with the Ego at the Edge of the Living Tradition “Such renunciation appears intolerable, insane even, to the self willed but the man who is not afraid to become a fool has found true life and true wisdom.” St. Sophrony of Essex Christianity, when you draw near to it, is not reasonable. It is not tidy. It does not fit inside the categories we use to manage our lives, protect our reputations, or justify our instincts. It is a scandal. The God who reveals Himself in
Father Charbel Abernethy
Jan 263 min read
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