On priesthood, the religious ego, and discovering the person who remains before God “Wherever you go, have God before your eyes.” — Abba Anthony When priestly or religious formation begins relatively young and then extends across decades, it does not merely teach a person what to do. It gradually supplies a grammar for understanding who one is. Clothing, title, community, obedience, liturgical place, relationships, expectations, even the way others look at us—all of these can

Abiding in Christ when there is nothing left to hold “Trust in the Lord for ever, for the Lord is an everlasting rock.” — Isaiah 26:4 There comes a time when prayer is no longer chiefly something we say. It becomes where we stand. The Name of Jesus ceases to be one devotion among others, one practice among many, and becomes the place where the heart abides when it no longer knows where else to go. Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me. Perhaps this is why the Name m

Phronema and the Recovery of Wonder “What is a merciful heart? It is a heart on fire for the whole of creation.” — St. Isaac the Syrian There is a way of leaving the world that is really an attempt to escape it. And there is another way of leaving the world that finally allows us to see it. The Fathers went into the desert not because they despised creation. They went because they understood how difficult it is to see anything clearly while we are trying to possess it. The pa

St. Isaac the Syrian, the Longing for God, and a Path Forty Years in the Making “What unfolds across these pages is one movement of desire—the heart awakening to wonder, being drawn beyond itself, and discovering that its deepest longing has always been for God.” There are books we write, and there are books that seem to have been writing themselves within us for years before we finally recognize them. Desire and Wonder belongs to the latter. I am very grateful to announce th

The Name Above Every Name: The Revelation of Christ in the Heart The Jesus Prayer and the Life of Communion I am grateful to share that The Name Above Every Name: The Jesus Prayer and the Life of Communion is now available, the second volume in a series exploring the wisdom of the Christian desert and the recovery of the inner life. The first book, The Monastic Heart and the Future of the Church: Recovering the Inner Kingdom in an Age of Fragmentation, began with a conviction

Vigil, Wonder, and the Refusal to Leave the Beloved “His mind will be quick to take flight as it were on wings, and rise up toward God with delight.” — St. Isaac the Syrian, Homily 20 There are passages in St. Isaac that can sound almost impossible to modern ears. His words on vigil are among them. “Do not imagine,” he tells us, “that among all the works of monastics there is any practice greater than night vigil.” We hear such words and immediately think of sleep deprivation

Desire, Freedom, and the Transformation of the Heart A Four-Week Retreat with the Desert Fathers and St. Isaac the Syrian UPDATED SCHEDULE Sept 12, 19, 26 and Oct. 3 7:00–9:00 PM EDT Register online at PhilokaliaMinistries.org “Abba Joseph stretched his hands toward heaven, and his fingers became like ten lamps of fire, and he said to Abba Lot: ‘If you will, you can become all flame.’” — The Sayings of the Desert Fathers There is something startling about this ancient story.

Strength, Wonder, and the Desire Born of Divine Love “He is my love, my fortress; he is my stronghold, my saviour.” — Psalm 143 (144):2 There is a way of hearing this psalm that can leave us almost entirely with the language of warfare. The Lord trains the hands for battle. He is fortress, stronghold, shield and refuge. Enemies surround us; mighty waters threaten to overwhelm us; falsehood rises against us. We cry out for God to descend, to scatter what assails us and to draw

Watchfulness, Divine Mercy, and the Love That Never Fails “As long as you are in the body, do not leave your heart unguarded.” — Abba Isaiah Synopsis of Tonight’s Group on The Evergetinos Volume III Hypothesis IX Section B 8-12 There is something almost relentless about the teaching of the Fathers on watchfulness. They will not allow us to imagine that there comes a point in the spiritual life when vigilance is no longer necessary. Age does not free us from it. Knowledge does

Abiding in God When Everything in Us Wants to Secure the Way “Charity never faileth but beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things.” — The Evergetinos, citing 1 Corinthians 13:7 There comes a point in the spiritual life when even our desire to be faithful must be purified. At first we imagine that fidelity means finding the right path and then walking it courageously. We seek clarity. We discern. We make decisions. We try to arrange our l

The Desire That Already Belongs to Eternity “The soul from love of the Lord has lost her wits, as it were.” — St. Silouan the Athonite Where do we live our lives? The question seems simple until we allow it to expose us. We can live in the world without the world being the place where our heart dwells. We can inhabit a house, fulfill our responsibilities, care for those entrusted to us, endure uncertainty, carry grief, answer the demands of each day, and yet inwardly live som

The Jesus Prayer begins not with our search for God, but with the discovery that He has already drawn near. “At the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth.” — Philippians 2:10 There comes a moment in the life of prayer when the Name of Jesus begins to mean something different to us. At first, perhaps, we simply say it. “Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me.” We repeat the words because we have been taught that the Jesus Pray

When the Name of Jesus Becomes the Place Where the Heart Abides “You will be hated by all men for my name’s sake; but he who endures to the end will be saved.” — Matthew 10:22 There is something almost frightening in the simplicity with which the Lord speaks these words. He does not tell His disciples that they will be misunderstood because they have failed to explain themselves adequately. He does not suggest that hostility will disappear if they become sufficiently winsome,

Christ’s Omni-Vulnerability and the Terrible Beauty of Loving as He Loves “He voluntarily surrendered Himself to His Passion because He was already possessed by the passion of His great love, which is stronger than death.” — Archimandrite Zacharias Zacharou, The Dawn of the Eternal There are truths about Christ that console us, and there are truths about Christ that undo us. We are consoled to hear that God loves us. We are consoled to hear that He seeks the lost, forgives th

Why I Wish I Had Begun Here “One thing is necessary.” Luke 10:42 I recently reread The Monastic Heart. It is a curious experience to revisit something written over many years. One notices sentences that could have been improved or thoughts that might have been expressed more clearly. Every author does. Yet what remained with me was something altogether different. As I turned the pages, I found myself thinking, I wish this had been the foundation of my own formation over for

Stillness, Holy Simplicity, and the Birth of Desire Before the Face of Christ “Stand yourself directly before the face of God and always fix your eye unyieldingly upon Him.” — St. Isaac the Syrian, Homily 19 Synopsis of Tonight’s Group on The Ascetical Homilies of St. Isaac the Syrian Homily 18 paragraphs 4-5 and Homilu 19 paragraph 1: There is a temptation in every generation to believe that the spiritual life consists primarily in learning new methods, acquiring hidden know

When the Heart Learns to Speak the Name That Never Ceases “At the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.” — Philippians 2:10–11 There are books that seek to explain the spiritual life, and there are books that quietly invite us to enter it. The Name Above Every Name was written with that second hope. It grew slowly through months of prayer, years of re

Why the Desert Fathers Continue to Speak to Every Generation “Wherever there is a renewal of Christian life, there one finds a return to the Desert Fathers.” — Fr. Irénée Hausherr, S.J. Fr. Irénée Hausherr’s observation has remained with me for many years: “Wherever there is a renewal of Christian life, there one finds a return to the Desert Fathers.” The older I become, the more I believe he was describing something far deeper than a historical pattern. He was pointing to a

Why the Renewal We Seek Must Begin Where Christ Has Always Waited “My son, give me your heart.” — Proverbs 23:26 There is a temptation in every age to believe that the Church’s deepest crisis lies somewhere outside herself. We point to a secular culture that has forgotten God, to the fragmentation of family life, to confusion within the Church, to failed leadership, declining numbers, or the relentless noise that leaves little room for silence. All of these are real. All dese

The Jesus Prayer and the revelation of Christ in the heart There are certain books that one writes over many years without ever intending to write them. They emerge slowly through prayer, countless hours with the Scriptures, the Desert Fathers, and the wisdom of the saints. More than anything, they arise from the hidden work of God in the heart. I am grateful that The Monastic Heart and the Future of the Church has now begun its journey into the hands of readers throughout th