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The Grammar of the Heart — Reflection VIII
Can a Spirituality Be Separated from the Church That Bore It? “Taste and see that the Lord is good.” — Psalm 33:9 LXX For many years, I thought it was possible to receive a spiritual tradition primarily through its texts. I am less certain now. Books can open doors. They can place us in the presence of minds and hearts separated from us by centuries. They can introduce us to worlds we did not know existed. Sometimes a book arrives at precisely the right moment and alters the
Father Charbel Abernethy
19 hours ago7 min read


A God Who Will Not Fit Within Our Boundaries
The frightening freedom of divine love “Do not forbid him; for he that is not against you is for you.” — Luke 9:50 There is something almost painfully human about the disciples in this Gospel. They have discovered a man casting out demons in the name of Jesus, and immediately they are troubled. Not because the demons remain. Not because the man is deceiving anyone. Not because the name of Jesus is being dishonored. Their complaint is much simpler: “He does not follow with us.
Father Charbel Abernethy
3 days ago5 min read


When God Rejoices Over Man
The Incarnation and the Terrible Beauty of the Human Person “Man, completed and perfected, is wondrous, even as God is wondrous.” — St. Sophrony of Essex, His Life Is Mine “A man is born into the world.” We hear these words and think of something ordinary. Another child. Another life beginning among billions of lives. Another small creature entering a world already immense before him and destined to continue long after he is gone. But St. Sophrony hears something altogether d
Father Charbel Abernethy
4 days ago6 min read


Synopsis of Session I of the Fall Retreat: To Become All Flame
When Desire Is Purified into Love A Reflection on the First Evening of Our Retreat “If you will, you can become all flame.” — Abba Joseph We began our retreat with one of the most familiar sayings of the Desert Fathers, and yet perhaps one of the most inexhaustible. Abba Lot came to Abba Joseph and described what had become the pattern of his spiritual life. He kept his little rule. He fasted according to his strength. He prayed and meditated. He tried to maintain interior pe
Father Charbel Abernethy
6 days ago9 min read


The Grammar of the Heart — Reflection VII
Phronema: More Than Having the Right Ideas “Let this mind be in you which was also in Christ Jesus.” — Philippians 2:5 There is a word in the Christian East that is difficult to translate. Phronema. We can call it mind. Mindset. Disposition. Consciousness. Way of thinking. Spiritual perception. None of these is wrong. None is enough. Perhaps the difficulty itself tells us something important. Phronema does not describe merely what we think. It describes the place within us fr
Father Charbel Abernethy
7 days ago7 min read


Your Names Are Written in Heaven
When even the good we do for God must be surrendered “Nevertheless do not rejoice in this, that the spirits are subject to you; but rejoice that your names are written in heaven.” — Luke 10:20 The most dangerous possessions are sometimes the ones we acquire in the service of God. The seventy return to Jesus radiant. “Lord, even the demons are subject to us in your name!” They have every reason to rejoice. They have not accumulated wealth. They have not conquered cities. They
Father Charbel Abernethy
Oct 175 min read


The Grammar of the Heart — Reflection VI
When Prayer Becomes a Way of Seeing “The remembrance of Jesus, combined with heartfelt fervor, will destroy all the enchantments of our thoughts.” — St. Hesychios the Priest We usually begin prayer by thinking that prayer is something we do. We set aside time. We say words. We keep a rule. We read the Psalms. We stand before an icon. We invoke the name of Jesus. We become distracted and begin again. All of this is necessary. But after many years another possibility begins to
Father Charbel Abernethy
Oct 177 min read


The Grammar of the Heart — Reflection IV
When Repentance Ceases to Be Fear “Repentance is the trembling of the soul before the gate of Paradise.” — St. Isaac the Syrian There is a kind of repentance that leaves us staring at ourselves. We examine our failures. We measure our guilt. We rehearse what we have done. We wonder whether God has forgiven us, whether we have repented sufficiently, whether some hidden severity remains behind the mercy we have been promised. God may be present in such repentance, but often at
Father Charbel Abernethy
Oct 166 min read


The Grammar of the Heart — Reflection III
Sitting at the Feet of the Ascetics The heart does not learn the language of God by mastering ideas, but by dwelling among those who have learned to speak it with their lives. There comes a point when reading the Fathers changes. At first we read them because we want to know what they thought. We underline sentences. We compare translations. We follow arguments. We collect sayings from the desert and passages from the Philokalia. We learn the vocabulary of nous, nepsis, apath
Father Charbel Abernethy
Oct 156 min read


The Grammar of the Heart - Reflection II
Before Theology Becomes Words How the Christian Life Teaches Us to See “Taste and see that the Lord is good.” — Psalm 33:9 LXX There is a knowledge of God that comes before explanation. Not before revelation. Not before truth. Not before the Church gives us the words by which we confess what has been revealed. But before those words become our own—before theology passes from the lips into the heart—there is often something quieter taking place. We are learning God by living b
Father Charbel Abernethy
Oct 158 min read


The Grammar of the Heart - Reflection I
When Mercy Becomes the Way We See The heart is changed when mercy ceases to be something we believe about God and becomes the light by which we see everything. “As a grain of sand cannot counterbalance a great quantity of gold, so in comparison God’s use of justice cannot counterbalance His mercy.” — St. Isaac the Syrian ______ The Grammar of the Heart is a nine-part series exploring how prayer, repentance, suffering, and the ascetical tradition gradually form not only what w
Father Charbel Abernethy
Oct 157 min read


The Grammar of the Heart - Introduction
How Prayer, Repentance, and Grace Teach Us to See “Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God.” — Matthew 5:8 The Grammar of the Heart is a nine-part series exploring how prayer, repentance, suffering, and the ascetical tradition gradually form not only what we believe about God, but the way the heart learns to see Him. This is the Introduction. _______ There comes a point in the spiritual life when the question is no longer simply what we believe. The question bec
Father Charbel Abernethy
Oct 159 min read


The Soil Must Be Broken
The Word of God does not fail. The question is what kind of earth we have become. “Break up your fallow ground, and sow not among thorns.” — Jeremiah 4:3 There is something almost frightening about the generosity of the sower. He does not carefully ration the seed. He scatters it everywhere: onto the road, among stones, into thorns, upon good earth. God is not reluctant to speak. He is not withholding Himself until we become worthy. The Word falls continually upon the human h
Father Charbel Abernethy
Oct 106 min read


When the Vineyard Is Not Our Own
St. Gregory the Great and the terrible possibility of doing the work of God while neglecting God “They made me keeper of the vineyards, but my own vineyard I have not kept.” — Song of Songs 1:6 There are words of the Fathers that console us. There are others that leave us nowhere to hide. St. Gregory the Great’s words about the priesthood belong to the latter kind. “We accept the duties of office,” he says, “but by our actions we show that we are attentive to other things.” I
Father Charbel Abernethy
Oct 107 min read


When the Greatest Becomes Small
John the Baptist and the terrible freedom of decreasing “He must increase, but I must decrease.” — John 3:30 There is something almost unbearable about where we find John the Baptist in this Gospel. The man of the wilderness is no longer in the wilderness. The voice that once cried out beside the Jordan is confined behind walls. The crowds are elsewhere now. Another is preaching. Another is healing. Another is gathering disciples. John cannot even go to Jesus himself. He must
Father Charbel Abernethy
Oct 86 min read


When the Heart No Longer Needs to Translate
Phronema and the Mystery of Belonging Elder Aimilianos of Simonopetra (1934-2019) “Where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.” — Matthew 6:21 There comes a time when a language is no longer learned. It is simply spoken. At first we approach the spiritual life as strangers. We learn its words. We read the Fathers. We try to understand repentance, watchfulness, stillness, compunction, purity of heart. We take up the Jesus Prayer awkwardly, consciously. We enter sile
Father Charbel Abernethy
Sep 214 min read


The World After You Have Died to It
Phronema and the Recovery of Wonder “What is a merciful heart? It is a heart on fire for the whole of creation.” — St. Isaac the Syrian There is a way of leaving the world that is really an attempt to escape it. And there is another way of leaving the world that finally allows us to see it. The Fathers went into the desert not because they despised creation. They went because they understood how difficult it is to see anything clearly while we are trying to possess it. The pa
Father Charbel Abernethy
Sep 215 min read


Phronema Is a Way of Seeing Born from a Way of Dying
The Fathers do not give us a religious identity. They lead us to the place where only Christ remains. “It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me.” — Galatians 2:20 Phronema is not first a collection of ideas. It is a way of seeing born from a way of dying. We often approach the spiritual life believing that we are going to acquire something. Knowledge. Wisdom. Peace. A deeper understanding of prayer. Perhaps even holiness. We imagine that the person who begins th
Father Charbel Abernethy
Sep 216 min read


When Certainty Is No Longer a Criterion
The freedom that comes when the soul no longer asks where it will be safest, but where it can belong wholly to God “Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him, and he will act.” — Psalm 37:5 There comes a point in the spiritual life when certainty is no longer a criterion. Not because certainty is undesirable, nor because prudence has ceased to matter. Rather, the soul discovers that there are moments when every road disappears into mist. No choice guarantees security. No deci
Father Charbel Abernethy
Sep 185 min read


Desire and Wonder: A New Three-Volume Series Is Published
St. Isaac the Syrian, the Longing for God, and a Path Forty Years in the Making “What unfolds across these pages is one movement of desire—the heart awakening to wonder, being drawn beyond itself, and discovering that its deepest longing has always been for God.” There are books we write, and there are books that seem to have been writing themselves within us for years before we finally recognize them. Desire and Wonder belongs to the latter. I am very grateful to announce th
Father Charbel Abernethy
Sep 157 min read
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