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A God Who Will Not Fit Within Our Boundaries
The frightening freedom of divine love “Do not forbid him; for he that is not against you is for you.” — Luke 9:50 There is something almost painfully human about the disciples in this Gospel. They have discovered a man casting out demons in the name of Jesus, and immediately they are troubled. Not because the demons remain. Not because the man is deceiving anyone. Not because the name of Jesus is being dishonored. Their complaint is much simpler: “He does not follow with us.
Father Charbel Abernethy
1 day ago5 min read
The Grammar of the Heart — Reflection IV
When Repentance Ceases to Be Fear “Repentance is the trembling of the soul before the gate of Paradise.” — St. Isaac the Syrian There is a kind of repentance that leaves us staring at ourselves. We examine our failures. We measure our guilt. We rehearse what we have done. We wonder whether God has forgiven us, whether we have repented sufficiently, whether some hidden severity remains behind the mercy we have been promised. God may be present in such repentance, but often at
Father Charbel Abernethy
Oct 166 min read
Sitting at the Feet of Mercy
Rereading St. Isaac and discovering how quietly a vision of God can become the language of the heart “As a grain of sand cannot counterbalance a great quantity of gold, so in comparison God’s use of justice cannot counterbalance His mercy.” — St. Isaac the Syrian I have been rereading Desire and Wonder, and something has surprised me. It is not primarily the arguments that remain with me, nor even the passages I remember laboring over. What I notice now is the tenderness. The
Father Charbel Abernethy
Oct 125 min read
Sons of Light
The Cross and the Becoming of the Heart “While you still have the light, believe in the light, and you will become sons of light.” — John 12:36 There is a difference between seeing the light and becoming light. We can spend much of our lives standing near holy things without allowing them to change us. We can speak of Christ, defend Christ, teach Christ, even suffer in the name of Christ, while still guarding some hidden territory of the heart from Him. But the Gospel speaks
Father Charbel Abernethy
Sep 145 min read
When the Night Becomes Desire
Vigil, Wonder, and the Refusal to Leave the Beloved “His mind will be quick to take flight as it were on wings, and rise up toward God with delight.” — St. Isaac the Syrian, Homily 20 There are passages in St. Isaac that can sound almost impossible to modern ears. His words on vigil are among them. “Do not imagine,” he tells us, “that among all the works of monastics there is any practice greater than night vigil.” We hear such words and immediately think of sleep deprivation
Father Charbel Abernethy
Aug 197 min read
When the Heart Sees Who Has Come Near
Strength, Wonder, and the Desire Born of Divine Love “He is my love, my fortress; he is my stronghold, my saviour.” — Psalm 143 (144):2 There is a way of hearing this psalm that can leave us almost entirely with the language of warfare. The Lord trains the hands for battle. He is fortress, stronghold, shield and refuge. Enemies surround us; mighty waters threaten to overwhelm us; falsehood rises against us. We cry out for God to descend, to scatter what assails us and to draw
Father Charbel Abernethy
Aug 186 min read
Who Is Not Wounded?
A Fierce Word from the Evergetinos on Judgment and Love ⸻ Synopsis of Tonight’s Group on The Evergetinos Volume III Hypothesis II Section B4 - Section D2 There is something in us that wants to make the spiritual life clear, manageable, and measurable. We fast. We give alms. We pray. We examine ourselves. And quietly, almost imperceptibly, something begins to form beneath it all: A self that stands. A self that knows. A self that can look at another and say, “At least I am not
Father Charbel Abernethy
May 43 min read
Abide in the Love That Seeks You
From Compunction to Surrender in the Fire of Divine Eros “We love because He first loved us.” 1 John 4:19 There is a compunction that still circles the self. Tears can be shed that are secretly about my failure. My weakness. My fall. My loss of image. Even repentance can become a mirror in which I stare at myself. The fathers warn us that the ego is subtle. It will clothe itself even in sackcloth. The sorrow that leads to life does not end in self absorption. It breaks the he
Father Charbel Abernethy
Feb 234 min read
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