PHILOKALIA MINISTRIES

A Colloquy on Remaining in Mercy When Strength Fails Soul God, what does it mean to remain standing in Your mercy. How do I know that I am loving You or that I am being loved. Not forgotten. Remembered. This feels like uncharted territory, not in thought but in living. I call Your Name in the Silence and nothing answers the way it once did. You say Remain. Yet I feel like a man dying. Strength draining. My eyes are closed. I am breathing, but shallowly. I feel my heart beatin

A Colloquy in Unknowing and Trust Soul God, I feel lost. Everything that gave me a sense of security and identity is vanishing. I am not depressed. I am adrift, as if on an open ocean, no shore behind me, no horizon ahead. Each day there is a deeper humiliation, not dramatic, not theatrical, but quiet. A stripping. Even my past feels unreliable, as if I lived inside distortions of my own making. Silence alone feels real, because I cannot project myself onto it. It swallows ev