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Reflection on The Ascetical Homilies of St. Isaac the Syrian Homily 21:27-28, Homily 22:1-4, Homily 23:1-2 There is a beauty hidden in the life to which God calls us, a radiance that has nothing to do with worldly glory and everything to do with a heart that longs for Him alone. Saint Isaac opens before us the strange and glorious paradox that the love of God sometimes urges us outward in mercy and at other times draws us inward into stillness. It is not the path alone that m

There are moments when an ache rises in me with the precision of a blade. It is not sorrow and it is not despair. It is exile, the mark of being far from a homeland I have never walked, yet cannot forget. There is a certainty that I was fashioned for a Life I have not yet touched, and the distance burns like cauterized flesh. The tasks before me are good. Caregiving. The unseen prayers whispered in a quiet room. The work of Philokalia Ministries offered into the vastness beyo

The lamp burned low beside the small window of the hermitage. The disciple’s breath trembled like a man who walked long while carrying an unseen stone in his chest. In the quiet, a presence stood, not in vision, not in thunder, but like cedar smoke lingering after a fading flame. St Charbel spoke as one who had become silence. ⸻ Disciple:  Father, something within me is shifting. Not in rebellion, nor in doubt, but like a door I did not ask for slowly opening in the night. I

“The highest form of prayer is to stand silently in awe before God.” St. Isaac was not speaking about an achievement. He was not describing the fruit of spiritual brilliance or a refined mystical technique. He was naming the moment a soul collapses into truth. When all words die. When self-justifications crumble. When the mind’s scaffolding falls away and there is nothing left but a naked heart trembling in the presence of the One who has always been there. This silence is no

Our Lord speaks into the human heart with a clarity that unnerves and heals at once. Do not be anxious.   Do not be afraid.   Take no thought for your life.  These are not gentle suggestions. They are the authoritative words of the One who knows the true condition of the human mind and the ravages that fear inflicts upon the soul. Christ does not command the impossible; He calls the heart back to its native freedom, to the trust that Adam once knew before he clothed himself i

The Desert Fathers and Modern Elders on Not Fleeing the Silence Silence is never neutral. The fathers knew this well. They understood that silence stretches out like a vast inner desert. When one first enters that desert, it feels like abandonment. It feels like being stripped of identity. The ego begins to panic because it has lost the mirrors it uses to reassure itself. The fathers called this first stage the temptation of isolation . Abba Moses said that when a monk enters

There is a strange law in the spiritual life: silence expands in direct proportion to our desire for it. At first it feels like a narrow path, a small clearing carved out of the bramble of responsibilities, conversations, screens, and concerns. But the more we turn toward it, the more it widens—like the desert itself opening before the monk who dares to leave the city gates. Abba Poemen said, “A man may seem to be silent, but if his heart is condemning others he is babbling c

A Personal Reflection on the Abandonment of Discernment There are moments in life when the familiar scaffolding of identity is stripped away. Titles loosen their grip. Roles fall silent. What once steadied the heart no longer provides clarity. And suddenly one stands where one had not planned to stand, with no chart, no map, only the bare ground under one’s feet. I used to think discernment was a kind of spiritual compass, a way to gain a sense of direction, to understand wha

“I have sunk into the mud of the deep and there is no foothold.” There are seasons when the inner world loses its compass and the outer world turns to mist. Days when nothing holds still long enough to be named and every direction seems equally unreliable. The Fathers knew these seasons well. Cassian once wrote that the soul can enter a place where “all things seem confused within,” where discernment wavers like a flame in the wind. St Isaac tells us that God sometimes allows

In the dim cell of a mountain hermit, a single oil lamp flickers. The night has been long, filled with psalms and tears. St. Isaac sits near the wall, weakened from illness but watchful. His disciple, a young monk trembling from what he has seen, kneels nearby, unable to find words. ⸻ Disciple:  Father, my heart trembles at what my eyes have witnessed. That brother, how can flesh endure such fire? He struck the ground again and again as though his bones were not his own, as t

Meditation on Psalm 132 Grail Translation For as long as I have worn the priestly stole, the words of this psalm have burned quietly within me: “I will not enter the house where I live, nor go to the bed where I rest. I will give no sleep to my eyes, no slumber to my eyelids, till I find a place for the Lord, a dwelling for the Strong One of Jacob.”  They have always been my compass, an unyielding call to seek a dwelling for God that is not built by hands. Through the years,

The demons rush upon me again, night and day. They whisper their poison as I rise, mocking the shape my life has taken: “What meaning has this priesthood now? What value is there in your hiddenness, in hands that labor rather than bless?”  They sneer at my silence, at the stillness of my hermitage, at the long hours of manual toil. By evening they return, dark voices circling the edges of thought, murmuring of wasted days and lost identity. And I, like the psalmist, feel myse

Let my heart be a holy temple of the living God and my hermitage the city of the Lord. May God Himself protect it by His holy angels and put within me only the desire to walk the way of perfection. There are mornings when I rise and the silence presses against my chest like a living thing. The walls of this hermitage are close and familiar, yet within them there is an expanse larger than any city. When my heart begins to awaken to prayer, I sense it: how easily the boundaries

There are souls who burn quietly, hidden beneath the folds of the world’s noise. St. Charbel was one such flame: unseen, uncelebrated, consumed entirely in the offering of himself to God. He lived what the Desert Fathers called the single heart : the undivided gaze fixed upon the Lord alone. Every affection, every human comfort, every trace of self-regard was brought before that fire and allowed to perish. When I look at his life, I see not distance but mirror. For though my

Synopsis of Tonight’s Group on The Ascetical Homilies of St. Isaac the Syrian Homily 5 paragraphs 19-23: God has no need of anything, yet St. Isaac tells us that He rejoices whenever a man comforts His image and honors it for His sake. The divine joy is found not in what is given but in the mercy that reflects His own. When the poor come to us, it is not their need that is the test but our response to the image of God standing before us. To refuse them is to turn away grace i

A Meditation on Psalms 91 and 134 As the final light fades and the weight of the day settles upon the soul, the words of the psalms become like a final breath of prayer drawn into the heart. “He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High and abides in the shade of the Almighty says to the Lord: ‘My refuge, my stronghold, my God in whom I trust.’”  (Psalm 91). These words are no mere recitation; they are a shield, a dwelling, a place where the soul takes refuge when the shadow